The search is over. Sobriety has found you. I hope you are now at peace and your demons finally silent. I'm sorry you were alone for so long. I hope you didn't suffer. But I guess you had suffered for 46 long years. Being controlled even from the grave. Now you have an eternity to work out your differences. Somehow I always thought you would get healthy and come back. Remember? Our happily ever after? I think now you understand why I couldn't stay. I never wanted to leave you, but at the same time I couldn't allow you to destroy me. It had nothing to do with my love for you. That never ever changed. I've missed you for so long. Now I can talk to you anytime I want. I guess ours was always meant to be a tragic love story.